I'm sorry I haven't written in a while! I have been very overwhelmed.

Here is a little update on me:)

I am 21 weeks pregnant today. I had my ultrasound a little over a week

ago and found out that I am having a baby boy!! :) I have already

decided on a name: Alexander Michael. His middle name comes from

his godfather and my best friend Mike :) I am thinking about when I

should plan my baby shower for and I appreciate suggestions. The due

date is June 13th. Also, a week ago was my birthday :)

There is something that has remained a theme these last few weeks, and

that is what I am going to talk about today....Hormones.

I was aware that I have been easily aggravated since i've been pregnant,

but I guess it was worse than I even realized. My family informed me

recently that they have all been cowering in fear. The worst part about

hormonal outbursts, is that no one sees them coming. Not even me. One

minute we can all be laughing at a joke my sister made, and the next I

am sobbing for no apparent reason.

Things that have been bugging me that normally wouldn't:

-People sitting next to me. Normally I am not one to think about

personal space, but lately I can't get enough of it.

-People being happy. Sometimes its just annoying. It happens more with

certain people..

-Cold water. Normally I like my water either freezing cold or really hot.

Now its just hot.

-People chewing. It's like my hearing has intensified like 10 times! I can

hear every crunch and every munch.. It drives me bonkers.

-Everybody else who drives. It seems like everyone is just in my way

and trying to cut me off. It's as if I can't drive without people dodging in

front of me every 2 seconds.

-People. It's not really something I can pinpoint, but some people have

just been bothering me. I have to force myself not to be rude..

All my life, I have had a tendency to be more vengeful than is typically

warranted. You poke me too hard, I spend three weeks planning the most

severe revenge I can think of. Possibly including a surprise attack, a

bucket of lemon juice, and lots of paper cuts. I never imagined that

anything could make my reactions

MORE extreme.. Apparently, folks, it IS possible. 

The thing is, its not just revenge. I have become more ballsy in general. I

used to let certain people walk all over me. Now, I have the guts to stand

up for myself. Before I even realize that i am responding, I am telling

them to get their lumpy asses of the couch and wash their own damn

dishes unless they want boogers in their dinner. ..Or something like that.

I have decided that I need a name for when I get in these modes.

Lets look at the characteristics:

-It sneaks up on you.

-You don't know where it came from.

-you can't stop it.

-It can wipe out an entire room before anyone has time to respond.

-It always wins.

Pregnant ninja mode:

So watch what you say, or i'll Pregnant Ninja Kick you.

I Think I'm Regressing...

It's a funny thing; Since i have become pregnant, in many ways I have regressed. You wouldn't think that dumping more responsibilty on a person would make them act childish. In my case, it did.
Now, I dont mean to say that i have gotten more immature. I have not shirked my responsibilities and I am still completely capable of making adult decisions. The regression I am referring to happens in other areas.
Here are some examples:

1- I have started calling my mom "mommy" again. I don't just mean the word. I mean the attitude that comes with it. More like "maahh-meeey" slow and drawn out in a dependent and affectionate way. She said it was cute :) I like being called cute, so if you ever feel like complimenting me, feel free!!

2- My food choices have also altered somewhat. I have started cutting my sandwiches into smaller pieces again. I have gotten Happy Meals multiple times. Oatmeal with raisins has become a regular breakfast. Oh, and I play with my food..

3- I take naps almost every day. Whenever I have a chance, I lay on the couch or slip into bed and count sheep. (Not literally. Who actually does this? If you do, you have some serious problems getting to sleep and I think doctors might help more than the sheep.)

4- I now love using flotation devices in the pool. For some reason, since I became pregnant I cant swim. I just sink. I could swim just fine before then!!

5- I play with toys. An ornament can entertain me for much longer than is reasonable...

6- I express my feelings with tears first, and words later.

7- I shop in the baby section at any store I go to.


I don't see this regression as a bad thing. I think that it is a good reminder, no matter how slight, of how children see the world and what matters to them. It's good to think from their perspective and approach them in a way they can relate to. I think everyone needs a little innocence brought back into their lives. I think it would affect us all in a good way.

Me!!

If you are going to be reading about my life, it's probably a good idea to tell you about myself first. Let me start by saying that I wish i was funny. I'm not one of those people who can spit out witty remarks whenever I want. I like to think that i can sometimes, but i also like to be realistic.
Another thing about me is that I have ADD. I may start talking about one thing and then go off on tangents that are hard to track, but I promise I will try to end on my original point.

Here are some of the basics about me:

-I will be 19 on January 25th, 2011.
-I love to sing!
-I am pregnant.
-I just moved in with my mother(more on that later).
-I used to be the innkeeper at a bed and breakfast in Portland.
-I am single.
-I am the second of four children.
-I love bees.

My goals for this blog:
-To be even half as successful as my big sister, Jill of All Trades.
-To work through and have an outlet for all of my thoughts and problems.
-To hear thoughts and responses from other people and possibly meet new people.

I will be posting more shortly. Thank you for your support!